So here is the deal....

I finally let my guard down and let a guy get to me! And he broke, I mean shattered my heart!!! It's been a little over a month since Ryan broke it off. Each time I think that I am getting over him something happens and all I can think about is him and how much I miss him. He was my best friend and now he is gone! He gave me that whole line that we would remain friends, he would always love me and never forget me. Ugh yeah that's a bull shit line! I am a grown woman that deserves the truth! I'm pretty sure that his reason for breaking up with me was bull shit too! He said he didn't think it would work out with us being at different duty stations and he knew that I didn't want to be on oklahoma which is true but I was willing to go there to be with him, what a stupid girl I am. Anyways I'm pretty sure that he just wanted to get with some other girl! Why can guys just not man up and tell the friggin truth! I mean he expected me to tell him to truth...its only fair to tell the truth yourself. So I don't know what to do, I mean we were talking about getting married and everything, we spent to weeks in Ohio with his family and they loved me...WTF! Why?? is the question that I keep asking myself and I am so tired of it! I just want the truth!